September 17, 2015
Dear Architecture, Do I still love you?
Dear Architecture,
I love you! Since I saw you for
the first time, I have hopelessly fallen for you more and more. That big
bungalow where I spent my childhood was your harbinger for me. I would sit in
my balcony and feel the cool breeze wash my hair, I would bask in the daylight
that filtered through the window, listen to birds chirping in the garden and rain
falling on rooftop; stretch my hand out the door to try and collect the
raindrops in my hand. You are the one that enriched my existence since the beginning
of time. You were my basic need second to only food and clothes. You protected
me, but at the same time you let me engage with the rain, the sun, and the wind.
As I grew up, I saw your
different forms. Your magnificence hit me when I went to school. I would run
around in the large halls with high ceilings, sometimes hearing my own echoes,
sometimes indulging in the peaceful silence. I realized how intricate you could
be yet so sensitive to the people around you. My own existence seemed
insignificant in front of you. It made me love you all the more. All my life I
knew that you loved me back because you always made me happy.
But now, now I am scared. Sitting
at my desk in this big office tower, staring out the huge glass which spans
from floor to ceiling, I am scared. I am scared to see what you’ve become. I am
scared to think what will happen in the future, our future. I am at the 13th
floor and I don’t feel a thing, if it’s raining outside, I am dry. If it’s
sunny outside, I am cold. If it’s windy outside, I am still. I can’t hear the
birds chirping, can’t feel the peaceful silence; sounds of whirring machines
surround me. There’s a disconnect between your own outer and inner self. You
look beautiful from the outside but it does not reflect on the inside. You are
a limitless circle on the outside, but a confined square inside. It’s like I
don’t know you anymore. You were the one who connected me with nature, but now
you detach me from it. You protect me all the time, I feel trapped within your
confines.
You’ve changed! You’ve lost your
purity. It makes me want to run away from you. Take my heart and smash it at
the glass that stares at me so blankly. I keep asking myself if I still love
you! And the voice from deep within stops me and says “YES!” It says there’s
still hope. It says that if you and I try we can make it work. If we go back to
our happy memories and rekindle the essence that brought us together, relive it
in our current times, we can solve it. But how? After all these years, how?
Do you have an answer?
Hoping for our better future,
Me
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